haiz...2 daes since my 17th burfdae...so wat im 17...dat doesnt change aniting...evrything is so fucking da same...i got a whole load of shit on my burfdae and dat alone spoiled my mood...!!!!!!!ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dunno why pple bother to make promises in da first place...and what this fuss abt promises being made so dat they can be broken...ohhh to hell with dat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!To hell with you out dere who fucking tink dat u can handle tings in ur own hands...look i was dere when u were down in da pitch black hole of misery...i was da one who lift u up...i was da one who went beyond my limits to make sure u're alright...i was da one friend who stopped her own world far too many times for u just so dat u can breathe easy...i never asked for aniting in return and never will but all i fucking ask was for u to be dere on my 17th burfdae...I guess dat was too much of a request...Look,i have only 1 regret in my life and that is letting u werk dere...and for that 1 regret,i can never forgive myself...I woke up every morning saying "if only i didnt ask u to go for da interview"...I've realized in time dat nuting cld ever change u not even a goddamn fucking mistake of urs and i've played my part...all i can do now is pray for u to be alright and dat we'll be da best of friends just like we used to...it reallie hurts to see u living ur life this wae...when i sae i dun wanna noe what's goin on,it doesnt mean i dun care...it just dat it hurts for me to listen to what u have to say...i asked u to do some soul-searching because its for ur own good...i dun wanna see my most beloved bestfriend ruin her life in a matter of just one night...dats just too fast a reality for me to accept...try to walk a mile in my shoes...im not asking u to change da person u are...im just asking u to see where on earth did u go wrong...Open ur goddamn eyes and look...Look until u see where ur fault lies...and when u've finally found urself,i'll be glad to reach out my hands for urs to hold again...Gerl,life is full of ups and downs...and im not spared either but why do u alwaes have to do sumting dat can ruin ur life and hurt does who love u...u tink u're d only one dat is full of problems and dat nothing is going right for u???I had my fair share of misery but dose things don't bring me down...dey dont make me do foolish things dat cld ruin my life sooner or even now...instead they taught me to be stronger..dey make me learn from da many wrongs dat i've done...dey help make me a better person...i told u before...opened up ur mouth and talk to me if u ever had problems but evrytime i sense sumting wrong with ya,u tried to shove da subject off by saying deres nothing wrong and u onlie came to me when u're oreadi crying ur eyes out...i just dunno wat else to sae to u...but i NEVER ONCE give up on you cos if i do den who else gon have ur back...den again im disappointed tym and tym again by dat fucking attitude of urs...i just dunno wat else to do...haiz...u asked me why am i cold towards u but did u ever noe u're da reason so...im smiling on da surface but deep down inside im breaking into a million pieces........IF ONLY U KNEW...

~BK's out~
19:41hrs
27th Dec '04

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Monday, December 27, 2004