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Monday, January 31, 2005

Time realli flies...2moro is da start of a new month...Da month for lovers to unite...hahaha...whatever it is aite...so it's been 2 daes i've not updating...reason:aint got da mood!!!!!Been doing alot of thinking but i dunnoe what i think about...i've just been thinking...Haiz...im going out of my mine thinking...and sighing have been a great companion of mine...think abt this,i sighed...think abt dat i also sighed...HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!and sighing have never been this bad...haiz...a long sigh never release da uneasy in me..wanna scream out loud but i cant cos it just doesnt come out...HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!and screaming gon hurt my throat...i wanna let it out but to who...Gerl?Yanis?Sara?Sofia?Tash?da first option is definitely OUT cos shes part of that...da 2nd one is also OUT cos she got her own sets of probs..da 3rd and 4th is a maybe but dun wanna disturb them...maybe me gon tell tash but how..???Da tym diff between her place and spore is too huge a diff...maybe i'll tell Jono abt it..hes just a beautiful stranger dat i gotta noe...maybe tash and him cld help..i rather da person helping me doesnt noe me cos it'll be alot easier opening up to them...'nuff abt dat..

So i'll be going off to Kuala Lumpur nxt tuesdae and will be back on fridae morning...reallie need da break and put my mind off things...gon do some retail therapy...shopping...hahaha...it proves wonders...hahahaha...its all abt me,myself and i aite...so u guys can take a step back cos i had enuff of putting u guys first...sape mkn chilli dier lah rase pdas...jadi kalo sape2 yg bacer terase mcm saye bobal pasal awk...jgn marah...its a fact...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To kak yana: maybe what happen is a blessing in disguise...maybe didi is da one for u but till then all i cld wish u is everlasting happiness...cos nobody knew how long a loving flame cld burn...

~BK's out~
31st Jan '05
19:48 hrs

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Monday, January 31, 2005

Saturday, January 29, 2005

gosh...im so tired todae...went to town together with my sis to pass my kuzz her friend's CD and then went to buy lunch for my kuzzs and gerl at Lucky Plaza...aft dat went to heeren and window shop and took some fun shots...then my mom called and asked us to meet her adn da rest of my family at Paya Lebar and we went to eat some pizza...yummy yum...and then we shopped again...bought loads of thing there...i try to keep this post as simple as possible cos im so dead tired already...my eyes are droppy and i might just doze off any moment from now...hahaha...im gon sleep in 2moro since its sundae...wakakakaka...im gon stop now...my hands are tired...and my body's aching...so till we meet again...this is my life story...muahahahahhaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!LAMEASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-= dizzy_afro =-

-= LoVe mE/hAtE mE =-

~BK's out~
29th Jan '05
21:32 hrs

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Saturday, January 29, 2005

Thursday, January 27, 2005

hmm...just feel like writing in another entry todae...kinda bored sitting arnd and nothing to do...haiz...*yawns*...havent eaten aniting for like 7 hrs and still not eating cause im not hungry at all...my mom got my sis to send me some food but i havent touch it yet...all i feel like doing right now is to take a nap...my eyes are so damn heavy rite now...hahaha...so valentine's dae is just arnd da corner...nothing much for me to be happie abt(not trynna be a spoilsport here) but there's reallie nothing for me to be happie abt...first,im SINGLE...hahaha...secondly,i dun tink we're encourage to celebrate it...thirdly,its just another dae...its not like its a holiday...but then me gon' get something for this person...not gerl aite...so ur guess is wrong...hahaha...niwae me already got an idea of wat dat person need...muahahaha...niwae me gon' stop here and try to write something based on da picture tash showed me just now...so ciao ciao...

~BK's out~
27th Jan '05
16:35 hrs

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

im at werk now...came in early at arnd 9:30 am cos i know at dat tym,Tash will be online and lucky me she is online...YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!Its been quite sumtime since i last chatted with her in MSN...so im absolutely excited dat shes online...muahahaha...Its just so comfortable chatting with her...never mind da age difference aite...shes just somebody cool and sweet...we're definitely one of a kind...hahaha...wat a small world...and she loves to write too..her idea of a story is definitely amazing....if i was a reader,i wld definitely read her stuffs...niwae i am a reader...a bookworm...hahaha...reading is just so fun...u get to be transported to a whole new different setting...and u get to experience(in ur thots of course!!!!)what da character is experiencing...and if ur reading a thriller,ur heart's racing everytime u flip da pages...u wanna know wats next,at da same tym u're scared...hahaha...isnt dat amazing...niwae 'nuff of dat stuffs...

Last night i was kinda craziee i tink...cos i had da sudden urge to listen to Taufik's Cd...so me search da whole house for it and when i played it on my discman(so as not to wake da rest up)i was so relief...beats me aite...his voice is so soothing...and when i listened to da 1st track,"One Last"...i got kinda emotional and suddenly da feeling of loneliness is dere and realized how much i miss my friends...nvr miss dem dat much but ystdae was different...kinda realized how much they meant to me...even the ones i dunt get along...dey played a part in it too u noe...like dey owaes say..."u never noe how much dat something/somebody means to u unless u let it go"...haiz...niwae i include of da song "One Last" lyric so u guys can have a look at it...

One Last-Taufik Batisah

I never could imagine,life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing u has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for while and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
It's better if we just let it go

Everytime i try to take a stand at all
I see ur face again and i fall
In the middle of the night there's a scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume i suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it' better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus

Baby if met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and i
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus

We both know
It's better if we just let it go

~BK's out~
27th Jan '05
11:36 hrs

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

hmm...kinda bored todae...nothing much to do at home except flipping da pages of LIME and 8Days and listening to some CDs and laze arnd...niwae just found out dat i have to werk 2moro..and kinda excited abt it...trust me i was nvr excited when it comes to werk aite but somehow i kinda like da thot of going to werk 2moro...craziee me...niwae i dunnoe wat to write in todae...lost for words...basically nothing in particular happen todae...so DAMN BORED!!!!!tossed and turned and tossed and turned again still got nothing to do...BORED BORED BORED!!!haiz...niwae i mentioned in my previous post dat i read this book "Feeling Sorry for Celia" rite..well i almost finish reading dat book when i accidentally left it at my aunt's home...gosh...so i started on this new book titled "Last breath" by Christopher golden and Rick Hautala(someting like dat)..and finished it up oreadi...im starting on my next book todae...YEAH!!!!!i cant live without reading aite...i just love to read...as for "feeling sorry for celia",me gon get it back this weekend and start reading it again...from page 1...i knew where i left off but its not exciting to start like dat...so there u have it my entry for da dae...muahahahhaa...take care pple...love all of y'all out there...especially gerl,yanis and tash...mmuackzs...hope to hear from da 3 of u soon aite...

~BK's out~
26th Jan '05
19:30 hrs

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Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Waddup pple...muahahaha...im kinda dizzy todae...wakakaka...a lil' chipper...dunnoe wadssup with me aite...my lil' sis was discharged from hospital todae...thank god...me hate going there cos da smell makes me sick...yikes!!niwae kinda miss my fwens...*sobs sobs*...miss tash,sop,yanis,sara and my lil' darlin' angel...me dun have to spell her name aite...its kinda redundant...muahahhaaa...niwae didnt hear from her for some daes now but i kinda got used to it cause dats her nowadaes...just dun let it get to worse cause me dun wanna lose a fwen like her...i gotta try to walk a mile in her shoes...gotta try to understand her aite...that's wat friends are for...but she havent walk a mile in my shoes...dats da prob aite...muahahhaa...who cares as long as i dun mind...dats me aite...me dun care what y'all out dere wanna sae bout me...me dun give a hood if u guys wanna condemned me...but rmb aite...me got my limits too..so dun stretch it thin pple...or else....muahahahah...evil..???dun tink so...me was never evil to start with..just dun get me started...niwae gotta head out of here now...gots heaps of thing to do...so see ya when i c ya aite...

gon' leave u guys with this thingy down here..kinda nice...

Now i aint with cha,know dat i miss ya,somehow i carry on
I can still picture,when i was wit cha,like u was never gone
I remember da good times,all of da bad times and how i carry on
can u hear me...i know u hear me...
(go figure aite...muahahhaa)

~BK's out~
25th Jan '05
19:16 hrs

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Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Monday, January 24, 2005

hey...me gon' keep this as simple and as short as possible cos im pretty tired...just got back from visiting my lil' sis at d hospital...not allowed to go home yet...maybe if everything is alrite,she'll be going home 2moro...but then again her fever is acting up again...niwae we'll see how 2moro aite..and todae i got da chance to have a look at my new house before da renovations...its pretty big and gosh does it need alot of werk to give it a complete makeover...cant wait to move in once da renovations is complete...that will be at d end of february...muahahhaa...me gon' get a queen size bed cos i'll be sharing it with my lil' sis and an awesome bedsheets from AUSSINO...pretty cool stuffs they got over there...im not sure what else im gon get for my room but i noe this tym im gonna keep it neat and tidy or else im gonna get blast hearing all those nagging from my mum and grandma...they sure hav alot to sae...a lil' update abt me aite..im down with a terrible flu..caught dat darn bug from my niece and nephew while i was sleeping over at my aunt's house...it got me frustrated...im easily agitated so dun get me mad aite...darn those flu thingy...every now and then i kept sneezing until i feel like my nose is dropping...wakakaka...and im coughing like hell now...my throat is killing me...feel like ants crawling up...argh...hate it to da core...niwae im gon stop here cause i gotta catch some rest...going to da hospital early 2moro...so update again when i have da tym aite....Mmmmmmmuackzs...love y'all out there...

~BK's out~
24th Jan '05
21:30 hrs

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Monday, January 24, 2005

Sunday, January 23, 2005

hey people...sorie if i didnt keep u updated abt da going ons of my life aite...been pretty busy lately and i aint got no time to logged on da net...nothing much happened dese few daes xcept for maybe ystdae but i get to that part later aite...lets see i da last tym i wrote in was last wednesdae,da 19th of Jan...dats like 4 daes (including todae)i havent post ani entries yet...4 long daes...muahahaha...i cant exactly rmb wat i did on thursdae..as for fridae it was Hari Raya Haji aka Hari Raya Korban...a dae sheeps and goats were sacrifice and their meat were distributed among da poor and the muslims...its a dae in rememberance of a prophet who sacrifice his son in the name of god...(tink so...im sorie if i got this one wrung...im not well-versed in this kind of thingy)...hehheehe...niwae..i was still sleeping over at my aunt's crib so on fridae i gotta wake up early in the morning to get ready to go to my place cos my grandma is over at my place...but i kinda regret waking up early cos we onlie went out at arnd 1 sumting...so much for all dat waking up early...haiz..niwae there's alot of food over at my place...all my favs...my mum and grandma is such a great cook...those dishes were awesome...had one hell of a fun dat dae and when i went back to my aunt's place,i was so dead tired...hahaha...but cant get to sleep so i sat arnd and chatted wiht my kuzz until arnd 1 in da morn...we had those matured girl talk...abt her failed marriage,why shes doing stuff dat is kinda stupid to think of it and stuffs u now when my phone rang...its my bestfriend,gerl,who just got off from werk...so i decided to ask my kuzz abt her(gerl) cause they're werking at da same restaurant...ask what have gerl been up to lately and is she coping with da werk load...has she improed in one wae or another..da answer i got was pretty satisfying since i was da one who asked gerl to werk dere..hehehe...niwae i was told dat gerl changed a lil' since da 25 dec incident...(u guys dun have to noe aite)and nowadaes,she went back home straight after werk instead of lingering arnd with her "colleagues"...to tell u da truth i dun like her werking dere one bit but stil gotta accept da fact that shes werking there and shes happie werking dere...another truth is i dun like da grps she hangs with at werk or after werk...they're a bunch of bad influence(from my point of view)...but then i cant reallie choose her friends for her rite..???Who am i to tell her not to befriend them when her parents didnt object to it..???im just protecting her so dat she doesnt do da most "STUPID" thing dat could ruin her life...n i can onlie give her a piece of my mind if i think wat shes doing is wrong but the rest is up to her...she have to learn to face da music if she did wrong rite...i can onlie gave her da assurance dat no matter what she still have me for her bestfriend...nothing gonna change dat...i got her back ride or die...aniwae back to da daes ive not been writing in aite...so ystdae was saturdae...went to da library to check out some books...and borrowed 4 awesome books...i alreadi started on this book called "Feeling Sorry For Celia" by Julianne Moriarty(da spelling may be wrung tho')...it was amazed by that content of da book and the writing style of d author...its so us...da TEENAGERS....muahahhaa...to tash,if u're reading this entry,i suggest u hit da bookstore and buy a copy...cos this book has similarities that connects da 2 of us...i was surprised dat i have to shake my head to regain myself...and ystdae nite,got a call from my mom saying dat my sis had been admitted to da hospital for astham attack and was in da emergency ward...got kinda scared cause she was fine when she met up with me in da aftnoon to go to the library...life is so unpredictable...u never noe what might happen to u in just a moment awae...da next moment u're running arnd da house and da next moment u're in da hospital...gosh!!so UNPREDICTABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Ima stop now cos i gotta head for da hospital...so u pple out there,take care aite...hmm...below is 4 pixies of my new found close friend,Tash...

To tash,i miss chatting with ya...haiz...wonder when we will chat again...haiz...niwae i get to read abt u in ur livejournal..take care aite...hugs and kisses for u...muackzs...

~BK's out~
23rd Jan '05
17:33 hrs

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Sunday, January 23, 2005

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

im totallie bored rite now...didnt get to chat with tash due to da tym diff,didnt get to chat with sara cos shes out to town...and cldnt get to chat with sofia cause shes busy with sumting...haiz...get to chat wif Yanis todae and i dunnoe...shes confused...im bored...we're clueless...HaIz!!!!Aniwae we're alwaes clueless...HMPF!!!!!niwae da song featured here is da song dat i mentioned in my previous entry...the loneliness...haiz...da song is so damn sad..felt like breaking down everytime i hear it...and Yanis send me a song todae thru' msn...by Keshia Chante called Unpredictable...dat song is da bomb man...so nice and slow...so me...i mean da type of song dat i would go for...and i like it in an instance...its featured in Yanis's blog...so if u wanna listen to it u gotta go check out her blog...she put in da lyrics too like i did...so sing along as u listen to it aite..a great track...right now as im writing this entry,im doing some thinking at d back of my mind...thinking abt stuffs dat happened recently and finding da root of cause and hope dat i can find a solutions to dat stuffs dat i've been thinking about...haiz...

star light star bright
first star i see tonight
i wish i may i wish i might
have da wish i wish tonight...

hehehe...i dunnoe what im gon' wish tonight but whatever wish i make,i hope it'll come true...actuallie i dun believe in making wishes and nvr make one unless i got da urge to make one...as usual it doesnt come true except for one wish i made on da eve of my burfdae,24th Dec '04...it came true da nxt dae...hahaha...im glad it came true but im oso not upset if it didnt came true...dats life...u dun owaes get what u wished for..u gotta be down-to-earth...like we malay owaes say "Berpijak Kepada Bumi Yg Nyata"...means deres onlie one world and dats da real world..so u gotta do a reality check..i tink dats wat i means huh...niwae me gtg now...i gotta head for da toilet or else....

~BK's out~
19th Jan '05
19:54 hrs

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

"The Loneliness"-Babyface

[Verse 1]
Im sitting here
Thinking bout How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am Im gon' get by
I ain't got no days Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

[Chorus]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again

[Verse 2]
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

[Chorus (repeat till end)]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

~BK's out~
19th Jan '05
17:30 hrs

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

me dunnoe what im feeling right now...Happy or Sleepy????!!!!!!!

Got a shocked last night when my fone rang out of da blue...hahaha...i didnt expect a call or a text u c...but surprised,surprised...i got a msg from my angel...hahaha...dat was gerl aite...i was so HAPPY dat i can actuallie felt my lips stretching from ear to ear...hahaha...i was like reading da msg over and over agian to make its from her u c...she got a new number u c and i just wanna make sure dat its reallie my angel...hahaha...god im so fucking happie she smsed me...hahahaha...Asked her why shes been ignoring me for da past few daes and she said dat was d only wae of being alone for da tym being...and so i asked her does being alone help in solving watever issues she had and she asked me to stop talking abt it cos she hate da thot of going thru' it all da pain alone...pity her aite...and she said dat she had made up her mind abt sumthing(she noes it,i knew it,da public dunnoe abt it)hahaha...da decision is unexpected but i wish her all da best for her future...she noes herself best...i can onlie advice but da rest is all up to her rite...if she tinks her decision is da best den da best it is...im a lil' bit insecure tho' bout dat but as long as my bestfriend is happy den me too will be happie...m i a good friend or M I A GOOD FRIEND????!!!!wakakakaka...i not trynna blow my own trumpet here aite...sumtimes i,myself dunnoe if im a good friend or wat...hahaha!!!!!!!!!its up to my friends to tell me whether ive been a good friend to them or a bad influence to them...hahaha...whatever it is im happie and blessed dat i have da best set of friends...life w/o them will be so empty...-Awww- dats so suiit of me rite...hahahaha...aniwae back to my entry abt dat text from gerl aite...rite and then she told me dat she gon' put aside some of her free tym for me...im so honoured but then how is she gon' do dat when shes werking like practically almost everydae...hahaha...its been like ages since i last saw her...miss her so much...

Feel so sleepy rite now cause i woke early this morn to meet my mother,lil' bro and grandma for breakfast together with my aunt whose place has been my second home...everything is so peaceful there...if i wanted to retreat for a short break i dun have to go far...just sleepover at her place and i'll be rejuvenated in a week time...hahaha...omg...da song im listening to right now make me wanna cry...its a song from babyface...called loneliness...make me feel kinda lonely all of a sudden...*sobs sobs*...haiz...i miss my sec sch friends alot man...we've been thru' da thick and thin together for 5 years and we finally overcome da biggest obstacle together...my class is very united for those who didnt noe...ALL FOR ONE...ONE FOR ALL!!!!!Viva la 5B2!!!haiz how i miss da school daes...miss my teachers,and miss da canteen food...da canteen grandma...da benches i've sat on...miss da morning assembly...miss everything abt school...and friends played a big part of my life in school...they're wat makes me look forward to going to school..i mish school so much...

Hmm...i feel like going out this Saturdae but then i cant cos i got some packing to do u c cos im moving this coming march aft da renovation is all complete...february will be a busy month for us cause deres so much to do...-DUH-

I feel like grabbing a bite rite now...so i gotta go now...take care...mmuackzs

~BK's out~
19th Jan '05
13:27 hrs

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

~collage of my idol~
courtesy of me,myself and i

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

haiz...im still sruck at werk...onlie a mere 6 hrs had passed...SHUCKS!!! Feel like going home rite this very minute but then i got a whole lot of responsibility right so i just gotta hang on in there tight...until 10 o'clock dat is...*sobs sobs*...Da boredom is killing me right now...ARGHHH!!!!

Just gotta know from gerl's sis,Fat,dat gerl is no longer using her number...so dats 1 wae less of getting thru' to her...haiz...now i can only ask Fat abt her(gerl) when Fat comes arnd my werkplace...Im still trying to find waes of geeting in touch with her but my mind just cant think of anything...i hate it man...i usually can find a wae out for any problem dat arises but now when my own prob arise,i simply cant tink of any solutions...totallie sucks man...this thingy is bringing me down...i mish da good ol' daes with her arnd...so much fun and so much laufter...what am i gonna do...????!!!!HAIZ!!!!!

Well,saw Felix and Kok Hui todae...actuallie dey saw me first coz they're walking infront of my werkplace...so da 2 of them drop by for awhile before heading to ONLY GOD KNOWS WHERE!!!muahhahaha...Not much of a changed is seen in them...Felix is still da same ol' guy with dat *** butt...hehehe...and Kok Hui still looks kinda smug...hahaha...sorie dude...hahaha...joking aite...

Me actuallie dunnoe what to write in but den still wanna pour out my thots fer da dae..feel so sad right now...not dat sad maybe a lil' bit down...but im up most of da tym...Im kinda lame MOST of da tym..i admit aite...but being lame is not a crime rite...i'm just being plain stupid and annoying...muahhahahaok...im talking craps right now...why????beats me...if onlie i have d answer to da stupid question of mine...wakakakakaka...tink i stop now before i get ani annoying and lamer...Ciao...mmmmuackzs

~BK's out~
18th Jan '05
18:36 hrs

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

oritey...how shd i start this post of mine...???hmm...me feeling kinda bored and lame as owaes todae...got up at 8:04 am cause my lil' niece,dini,woke me up...shes such a dearie...so cute!!!!!!!Den sit arnd and chat with my kuzz for awhile before trying to get to sleep again but then cannot...tried and tried and tried but stl cant!!!!!!!!!!so i gave up and played with my niece and nephew...dey're bunch of kiddos....hehehe...so fun having them arnd...haiz...rite now im stuck at werk for lke 10 hrs...im so damn bored and not to mention tired...ouh how i wish i cld just slip into slumber land right now and never wake up...HAIZ!!!

Still havent talk to gerl yet...its not like i dun wanna talk but i cldnt get thru' to her...asked her sis,fat,abt her whenshe came down to my werkplace ystdae but fat herself didnt talk to her nowadaes coz by the time gerl came back from werk,fat is alreadi asleep...haiz...but atleast i noe shes doing alright but then again shes good at not showing her emotions...dunno whats becoming of her...juz praying hard dat shes dong fine...mish u loads aite...!!!!!!!

Niwae gotta noe this 15 yr old girl from Mississippi,USA...her name is Natasha but called her Tash...we chatted online for a few time and shes just somebody great...she helped me with my prob...a great confidant...but then because of a BIG time diffenrence over at her side and here at my side we only got to chat for about 1-2 hrs...but then its fun chating with her as owaes...Shes just so awesome and we're sumhow one of a kind...hahaha...same thingy going on...Im grateful and blessed to have found a friend like her...may our fwenship last eventho' we're apart aite...Love ya as owaes!!!!!!!!!!

I dunnoe what else to write coz i busy chatting with Sara rite now...so i guess i just stop here aite...u pple out there...better take good care of urself aite...!!!!!!!MUACKZS!!!!!!!--<--@

~BK's out~
18th Jan '05
13:16 hrs

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Monday, January 17, 2005

Finally changed my skin todae...wanted to have it done since last week but then keep procastinating it...hehehe...like my teacher owaes sae...procastination is da thief of time...hahaha...my layout this time is kinda simple...right now my life is topsy-turvy that's why i keep this layput as simple as possible...too messed up make me feel blue...its very very simple and da song made me tink abt da good ol' daes...*sobs sobs*...haiz...mish my fwens so much...miss gerl and yanis LOADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hope da 3 of us cld hang like we used to do...and do da tings we oughta do long ago...

~BK's out~
21:51 hrs
17th Jan '05

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Monday, January 17, 2005

its been 3 daes since i last post any entries...during dese 3 daes i've been tripping a little...had a crisis going on with gerl...i dunnoe y shes giving me da cold shoulder dese few daes..i dunno wat i did or sae to make her act like this...i've apologized umpteen times but still shes ignoriong me...i smsed her and she dun even bother to reply to ani of them...when i called her,she said she was sleepy and will msg me later but she never did...wat is dat supposed to mean???????I've tried all means and waes to get thru to her but i failed...just tell me aite,what i've done to make u so upset...JUST FUCKING TELL ME AITE!!!!!!!Your silence make me guilty,make me upset and make me feel down...I dunno what else to do to make u forgive me...i wanna go to ur house and talk to u abt it but i don't even knoe whether u're at home or not...and im pretty sure u will ignore me 2...its killing me aite...da last ting i need rite now is another fight with ya...i few qns dat i need to know...i need to know what i've done wrong...not onlie will ur ans keep me sane but i noe nvr to make da same mistake again..u cld tell it to my face or on da fone,either wae i had to know...haiz...one ting aft another...how i wish this ting wld end rite this very minute...

Well...i had lotsa fun ystdae with sofia and mai...hehhee...well supposedly it was sara instead of mai but sara fell sick at the very last minute and we wanted her to rest instead if joining us so we called mai up cos its pretty boring with only da 2 of us(sofia and me)...i and sofia headed for town first and we meet mai they at arnd 3 sumting i tink...our first stop(me and sofia) was Scotts where sofia bought 2 perfumes(white musk and moonflower)from the Body shop...it cost her half of da money she brought along...aft dat we went to Far East Plaza to grab a bite cos we're both famished...da 2 of us cldnt reallie decide where to eat cos sofia is a lil' bit fussy when it comes to eating and finally we decided to eat at Long John Silver...da food was alrite...im not a fussy-eater u see...but i certainly have my favourites...hahaha...aft dat we went to Paragon coz i wanna buy some cds...so we headed for Gramophone which is located at da basement...a wide collections of Cds,Vcds and Dvds they have over there that i cldnt even decide which one to buy...finally i settled for "You got served" da vcd...my type of ting...hip-hop...hahaha..dats where we met mai up and den da 3 of us headed for Wisma Atria and sofia's da one who did da most shopping...at Wisma she bought another perfume(flowerbykenzo) and an eye-lash curler...from wisma we went back to Far East coz mai wanted to get something for her friend's burfdae but da shop dat shes looking for is no longer arnd..den da 3 of us took some fun shots(neoprints) which cost only $8...da shots turned out nice...hehehe...aft all dat shopping...we decided to head home...to be exact mai gotta go coz she's meeting her guy as for sofia and me we headed for Juong Point(Jp) for more shopping...hehehe...over at Jp,sofia bought a compact powder,baby's cotton bud and that's abt it...as for me i bought an OP wallet..da price is very reasonable...$16...at first i wanted this Billabong wallet which cost $27.90 its kinda long u c...hehhehe...so i settled for d OP wallet which suits me alot...onlie aft all dat shopping dat we decided to head home..i reach my aunt's crib(my aunt kinda borrowed me for 2-3 wks) at arnd 8 plus...once i reach home,i quickly switched on da tv and watch da soccer match between Singapore and Indonesia...hahaha...WE ARE DA CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!with an aggregate of 5-2,singapore won da Tiger Cup for da 2nd time and this tym it's on out own soil...YEAH!!!!!!!Kudos to the young lions...My fav players wld be Agu Casmir and Indra Sahdan...both player r EXCELLENT!!!!as for Baihakki Khaizan,hes so cute man..hahaha...aft da soccer match,i watched You got served together with my kuzz and did i mention how good da story is...nice dance steps...cool grooves...AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!and Marques Houston is super duper HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahaha.....I finally went to bed at arnd 1 sumthing in da morn and was awaken by da ringing of my fone at arnd 6 plus courtesy of sofia's msg...hehehe...continue to sleep aft dat and woke up at 9:21 am coz i gotta go to werk...how i hate mondae blues...arghhhhh!!!!!!!

I'm going to stop this entry now cos i got lotsa werk to do...write in ltr tonight or 2moro aite...hehehe....

ps:to tasha,thnx girl for ur word of advice just now...u make me feel a lil' better...as for u i hope all goes well for u and ur bestfriend 2...we're one of a kind...hehehe...love ya as owaes aite...

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17th Jan '05
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Monday, January 17, 2005

Thursday, January 13, 2005

hey peepx...me not in da mood actuallie todae...something happened todae and i dun wanna think abt it aite...it reallie sucks...right now im at werk..gotta cover jup for Peter from 7-10 tonight...haiz...i feel so helpless right now...seriously speaking my mind is in turmoil...im stuck once again...HAIZ!!!!Its kills me just to tink abt it...what should i do...????Should i give up??i've done everything that i could...try as i might,nothing was said...nothing end up being done...Lets just put all dat aside aite...lets talk abt changes...since da new year started,i've noticed dat my godsis,Yanis,have changed quite alot...for da better dat is and i reallie like da new her...hehehe...She is just this new person sumhow that u can relate too...not that before i cant realate to her but nowadaes eventho' i seldom see her,i can totallie sense that she's turn over a new leaf...so sis,1 of ur new year's resolution had been fulfilled now next on da list is going back to school...shes wants to fulfil her wish of becoming a nurse u see so sis im behind u all da wae...u're someone who never once give up so never ever give up aite...niwae miss ya loads sis...im still waiting for u to cook for me ur special dish...hahaha...niwae im outta here...kinda bored and nothing to sae..ciao ciao

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19:41 hrs
13th Jan '05

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Thursday, January 13, 2005

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

hey peepx...this gon' be mine shortest entry aite cos im so damn tired todae...so so tired aite... and after this ima pack my bags and head to my aunt's crib cause i'll be sleeping over there tonight...me pity my aunt...no one at her house so its huda to the rescue...hahaha...so i thot y not drop a post cos i've not been posting for quite sumtym...hehehe...so there u have it my post...hahaha...take care...and yeah i cant wait for sundae to come cos not only will i be heading to town but i'll be watching da Tiger CUp live at the national stadium...hehehe....its Singapore vs Indonesia...Singapore will bring back da glory...we are da champions...sing along y'all...hahaha...me gotta get out of here...im late...ciao...

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12th Jan '05

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Monday, January 10, 2005

hey pple...i feel so good todae aite...hahaha...just dun ask y aite cos i seriously dun have d answers...wakakakakaka....hahahaha...(god knows y im laufing like hell)..i feel like i've been born again...how lame can i get huh...hehehehe...

As a matter of fact i dunnoe wat da hell im doing rite now...hahaha...why da hell am i posting my entry when i dun have aniting to write about...hehehe...forgive me aite...brace urself aite...hehehe

Aniwae im going out with my 2 closest friends,Sara(shorty)& Sofia(sop) to town...hahaha...where else can u go xcept town on a sundae...hahaha...im getting my pay on saturdae so i got da dough to go shopping...hahaha...u dun have to actuallie guess wat im gonna get my hands on first ting i reach Far East Plaza...im gon' get maybe couple of shades...hehehe...1 for me,1 for gerl(a surprise prezzie for her...)niwae todae da 10th of Jan '05 marks da 9 mths we've been da best of homies...lotsa quarelling are cuming our wae...hahahaha...joking aite...da last ting i need is another of those big fights with her cause it gets out of control...nvr want of those fights to happen again...hahaha...aniwae lets get back to da main topic..yeah bout this sundae...yeah...bout me going out with sara and sofia...yeah dats it...u finally rmb...hehhee....i noe im lame..hahaha...so this sundae im going to have loads and loads of fun with da 2 of them cos da 3 lamers are back...hahaha...m i lame or M I LAME?????? heheheh...okae so da 3 of us gonna hit da town and strut(well not really strut cos we aint no top models here aite) our stuffs man..so all u non-lamers out dere...back off dude...hehehe...okok...i now this post is so damn bored and can i get ani lamer...hehehe...so for da fact dat i love u guys and dun wanna make u guys suffer ani longer...i tink i ma stop here..hehehe...thnks for reading....hahahaha

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19:43 hrs
10th Jan '05

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Monday, January 10, 2005

Sunday, January 09, 2005

haiz pple...im at werk rite now and im so damn bored...im stuck here all by myself..actuallie not all by myself,there's(counting)6 other pple here...hehehe...but still im bored aite...sleep late ystdae nite watching cruel intentions 2 on ch5...i like da sequel better than the first one that starred Sarah Michelle Gellar...hahaha...aft that show,i stil cldnt get to slumber land and had to like toss and turn and toss and turn...when i finally woke up,its already 6 sumting in da morning cos my sis was getting ready for some soccer match she'll be watching this morn...wake up so early for what...relax arkh sis...hahaha..i tink i kinda freaked her out cos she was tip-toeing to da kitchen(tiptoe for wat...u're in ur house wat) and i was shouting "Woit!!!!" to her cos she turned on da lights...and she stopped dead on her tracks...muahahaha...den i went to sleep again...hrs ltr,my 1 hell of a brother(hes 5yrs going on 50) fucking wake me up...arghhhhh....he was shaking me like hell..and my mom is already shouting at da top of her voice...i was like gimme 5 more minutes and i promised u i wake up..b4 i cld even close my eyes,my brother said well your five minutes is up so u better get up now...i dont have a choice i guess...so i drag myself sleepily tidying up da mess i've made and sit there for like dunnoe how long dozing off again...u can't blame me aite...im so damn sleepy...as im typing,rite this very minute,i might just doze off...hahaha...i cant wait for da clock to strike 10...hahaha...cos dat'll be da tym i'm off from this cold place...im actualli freezing eventho im wearing quite a thick jacket...haiz...i tink ima stop now...urghhhhh....

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13:57 hrs
09th Jan '05

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Sunday, January 09, 2005

hey pple...da same old brand new me...muahahaha...i kinda look like a guy but who cares...im still da person i am...wakakaka...aniwae dis pic is taken at the back of a bus at arnd 10pm on fridae,7th Jan '05 by my best homie gerl...(i asked her to snap my pic actuallie..hehehe)!!!

dis is my best homie,gerl...doesnt she look innocent in this pic...hehehe...

dis is my most beloved godsis,Yanis...a loving mother of 2...

~BK's out~
12:23 hrs
09th Jan '05

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Sunday, January 09, 2005

Saturday, January 08, 2005

hahaha...heylo pple...long time me nvr post ani entries...hehehe...im so tired todae...but still have to werk...dats life u c...cant reallie complain...

So yesterdae was Fridae...went to meet gerl up at her house...shes a lil' bit chubby now...just look at those cheeks of hers...hahaha...well reached her place at 4pm...was greeted at da door by her mom...her mom was like "u come here on normal daes but didnt came on hari raye...bz izzit???"hahaha...i can onli smile and politely said that i was bz...im sorie...then she asked me whether im skooling or not...i replied that currently im waiting for me 'O' levels result to come out...then she said...good for u...sapiyah(gerl) is oreadi a teacher(in a sarcastic kind of wae)...hahaha...her father was like smilimg a laufing a lil' bit...they're bunch of funny folks...hahaha...

Gerl was mixing her hair dye when i came into her room...and it took her for like 1/2 hr to cover all parts of her hair and gotta wait for another 1/2 hr for it to kinda dry before washing it off but then it doesnt turned out da wae she wanted it to be when she washed it off so she spent another hour making surre everypart of her hair is covered and waited for another hour for it to dry but then again it turns out kinda purplish...heheheh...instead of rose apple red...hahaha...then at arnd 8 pm,da 3 of us(gerl,fat and me) headed out to Jurong Point(jp) for some Andersen's ice-cream...gerl had a craving for some u c...did some shopping...to be exact gerl's da one dat did all da shopping...hahaha...she bought 2 pump shoes,2 tote bag,1 black top,1 studded belt,1 pair of scissors,1 big packet of seaweeds,2 cans of redbull,1 box of hair dye(we bought da wrong one hahaha)and cant reallie rmb wat else she bought...we were out of there at arnd 10 sumthing...i was supposed to head back for home but then gerl wanted me to fall thru her hood to lwatch her try on those stuffs that she bought so i went ahead with her since i got nothing to do at home...at arnd 11 sumting she gave me taxi fare and asked me to take a cab home...she also waited until my i had got into da cab b4 she went home...hahha...so thotful of her...i reached home at 12mn and onlie went to sleep at 2 sumthing in da morning...dat explains why im so worn out...but i had so much fun nonetheless...miss her so much...hehehe...

i tink ima stop here...im so tired...y'all take care aite...

~BK's out~
13:35 hrs
08th Jan '05

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Saturday, January 08, 2005

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Summertime(remix)
Beyonce ft.Ghostface Killah

[Ghostface Killah - talking]
Yeah .. uh huh
What up girl, yeah
I hear all that
That's real nice and all that
It's been, it been good though
Cause it's been a year
It been real good
Cause it been so good
In the summertime all over again
Tell me something

[Beyonce]
Out of all the guys that approach me
Walking up to me like they know me
You were the one that stayed aside
Waited a while and took your time
You don't know how impressing
Your curiousity was to me
It was the fourth day of July
Looked in my eyes and saw that I

[Break - Beyonce - w/ ad libs]
I wanted more than just a man (man)
I needed a friend (I want a friend)
Someone I can talk to
Someone who'll really listen
When you touched my hand
The sun got brighter then
Trusting you I close my eyes
And felt our love begin

[Chorus - Beyonce]
It was the summertime (when we fell in love)
It was the summertime (when heaven shined on us)
It was the summertime (baby there is nothing like the)
Summertime, summertime

[Beyonce]Now it's been a year and we're closer
Fall in love again when I hold ya
I know that God set you aside
For me and now, you are my prize
Wanna grow old with ya
Fill our house with your pictures
Have a son for you
A little girl for me
Together we'll raise a family
[Break - w/ ad libs]

[Ghostface Killah - talking behind Break]
I wanna understand everything you talk about baby
That's my word, cause I feel the same way
You know what I mean?I've been feelin this way for a long time too
And a .. it's like I wanna be a daddy
I wanna be your lover
Your everything, I just wanna share life with you
Just like yo
That's why I tell you I love you

[Ghostface Killah]
I use to sit back and analyze on how we first met
A year ago on the barbershop steps
You and your friends walked past me
I called you back like "come here sexy have a word with you yet, please?"
Congratulations on bein my gift
God wrapped you up tight and he preserved my wish
I'm not a psychic it's just that I'm in tune with such
I swear the vibes got heavy when we got real close
My whole demeanor caused me to ask questions and stare at you strangely
Have I found my baby?If so then tell me now
Look like you was 'bout to say somethin, you just broke a smile
Gave you the number and I said I'd dial (yeah)
A year later we on the block like "bow"
Tell me somethin, is it me or we up to somethin?
Love to love ya, your my friend and my woman

[Chorus][Ghostface Killah - talking]
This is Theodore, that's right
I keep hearin this all in my head over and over
I can't get it out, it's crazy
You know what I'm sayin baby
This joint is real, I like that
Tell me somethin[Chorus]

~BK's out~
20:54hrs
06th Jan '05

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Thursday, January 06, 2005

What's ur take on life???A question i've been asking myself for quite sumtym...i dunnoe wat make me asked myself dat question...i tink i juz wanna make sure dat i reallie knoe where m i heading towards da future...left,right,uphill or downhill????for me i rather take the path that pple rarely takes...that path can either be full of risks or a path that smooth and requires no risk-taking at all...maybe i just live my life dae by dae...isnt dat wats life supposed to be.."Live life to the fullest"...im sure u guys out there noe wat it means...But how do we actuallie live our life to the fullest when there are so many problems to cope with...avoiding the problems doesnt mean it doesnt exist at all...but its existence brings us down sometimes...and when we cannot deal with life nimore,we tend to be self-destructive(correct me if im wrong aite)...i have a friend who turned to drug bcause there's too much shit in his/her life...but luckily hes/shes able to get to his/her senses just in tym or else i dunnoe if im able to see him/her again...but nowadaes whenever shit isnt going his/her wae he/she keeps to him/herself and rather be alone...dat may be a lil' healthy but stil dats not da rite wae to deal with life...you gotta deal with life with an open mind and onlie then will u find da solutions...actuallie wat im saying here kinda contradict to wats me in real lyfe...i,myself dun talk to anione abt my props and dat i tend to give up on life(but i dunt turn to unhealthy stuffs aite)...bcause i find theres to much to cope with...da load on my shoulders is heavy...and it brings me down but i try not to be pessimistic...i try to tell myself dat dats what life's supposed to be...even if u dun like da wae it goes u still have to live with it...and sometimes when tings just doesnt go ur wae,dont push da blame on others...instead blame urself cause its ur life...u're da one dat runs ur life...i reallie we shd look at life in a total different wae...in a new wae...make it ur new year's resolution...if u see life in a totally different light,maybe u'll see da beauty in stored for u...

~BK's out~
19:56hrs
06th Jan '05

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Thursday, January 06, 2005

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

hey peepx...im at werk rite now and got nothing to do at the moment so here i am posting my entry for u reading pleasure..hahahax...okiesz...im quite bored actuallie right now so pls forgive me if i sounded lame or whatever aite..i tend to be lame ya knoe...ahackx

Im finally going out this fridae with gerl...cause dats d onlie dae that shes free and im glad dat she was da 1 who asked me out...hahax...its been quite a long tym since we hang out together ever since she started her new job...when im free and whenever shes werking split(2 shifts in 1 dae),i'll go down to town and meet her up for maybe let say 1/2hr...eventho' her break b4 her nxt shift start is like 2-3 hrs...1/2hr is not enuff to talked about the tings we've missed but i have to understand dat shes reallie tired and wanna get some rest...sometimes in friendship,one have to give and take...but its me who give most of da tym...wait im not complaining aite...its my pleasure actuallie but then it gets pretty tiring...i dunnoe if one dae im going let all hell break loose...i hope dat dae nvr happen...cause i noe myself..dun even get me started...u tripped my wire da first time,its a warning,da 2nd time will be a cold hard stare dat will torment u..and da 3rd tym u tripped my wire,u got it coming at ya...u start da game,i'll end it my way...muahahaha....

Im not reallie evil or cruel or even mean aite...so dun get me wrong but lets just forget abt all this being mean thing aite...its not essential...

todae morning,me and sofia and sara had a 3-way conference call and da 3 three of talk for lyke nearly 2 hrs until abt 2 in the morning...hahahax...its been such a long time since da 3 of us talked craps...this is how it started aite...

it was arnd 12mn and nothing on da tv is watchable...i just finished hanging up with gerl aft a mere 2 mins conversation...so i sat down wondering wat else to do next and sumhow it struck me from nowhere dat i missed my two closest friend,sara and sofia...so i decided to call sara up since shes da 'owl' type...we talked for quite sometym when she received a msg from sofia and i told her u noe why not we have a 3-wae onference call since we're pretty much awake and didnt have da time to catch up with each other for a long time..so she smsed sofia and asked sofia to called her up..we decided to play a prank on sofia..i pretended to be sleeping over at sara's crib and when sofia finally got thru' sara was like "huda cld ya get me some water from the fridge pls?" and i was trying so hard not to lauf abd said "aite gerl but u wanna drink wat?" sofia was like "i dun believe huda was at your house and all that stuffs..."so sara had to kinda like say i was at her place and dat i was in da kitchen and all that nonsensical stuff...but sofia was asking her to swear...u noe when cant reallie anihow swear so da 2 of us(sara and me)burst out laufing reallie hard and sofia was saying "i knew u guys trynna tricked me"...we cldnt stop laufing...i noe we're a bunch of lamers aite buit it was so much fun...da 3 of us being lame once again was loads of funs...so da 3 of ue ended up talking abt things dat happened to us,stuffs abt guys,werk and sumhow sofia and me seem to change a lil bit...as for sara,she's still as goofy as ever...we did more laufing den talking actuallie..hahahax!!!!!but we had to like hang up aft onli 2 hrs on da fone cause da 3 of us are pretty much exhausted and my fone batt is low...gotta charge it...so da three of us wished each other good nitez and asked each other to take care and promise each other dat we will in fact have to hang out one of dese daes...hahaha...u'll nvr noe dat u actuallie missed ur friends unless they're apart from u...dats wat im feeling rite now...im missing my friends...haiz...but im sure dat altho' each and everyone of us is damn bz with our own life,we'll surely meet one of dese daes...if not sooner ltr and if not ltr den i dunnoe wen...its just later aite...hahaha

i tink ima stop here...this one post is long enuff oreadi...hahaha

~BK's out~
13:09hrs
5th Jan '05

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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Sittin' on the edge
Looking for songs in a bottle
Talking with strangers who don't know my pain
Blurry eyed and burned out
Choking on more than I can swallow
Crack in a little voice called out my name
She said ~ Whatever happened to youIt's been two years where have you been
And I guess all my fears were trueT
he words were all gone the time's been too long
But I deserve to know what happened to my friend
Staring in her face
I see a past that still haunts me
The road where we split up is paved with the things I didn't say
We had wonderful times, but terrible timing
Now just leave her alone, I'll just be in the way

She said whatever happened to you
You took the coward's way out again
And I guess all my fears were true
The words are all gone, the time's been too long
But it's not too late to say I'm sorry to a friend
I'm sorry to a friend
Sorry to a friend
Like a stone in a stream
Life smoothes all our edges
'Til we barely make a ripple any more
But those times in my life will live with me forever
But we're not the same people that we were before
And I'm sorry for the smiles we missed and the times that I blew it
I've got so much to tell you
I don't know where to start
Maybe I'll find a way maybe you'll help me do it
'Cause friends like us should not be apart
And I'm sorry to a friend
Well now I'm sorry

~BK's out~
20:08hrs
o4th Jan '05