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Monday, March 28, 2005

hey pple...its been quite sumtym since i last update my bloggie...well,im not exactly MIA aite...its just dat i've been out and about dese few daes...its kinda bored sitting at home doing nothing so me get up on my feet and grab my bag and fone and 5 mins later im somewhere out there...Sometimes i went to my cuzz's crib and just chilled dere,playing with my niece and nephew until i tink its tym i went home...if im not dere,im at da library reading up books...and if im just too tired to go out,im in my room lazing arnd all dae reading my books...listening to my discman while da radio is on and then for all i noe,im in slumberland...hahahaha...and i just gotta noe from gerl dat her grandad just passed awae...god bless his soul aite...and to u my dear gerl,take it easy aite...everything's gon' be alrite...u gotta be strong and accept it aite...it may be sudden but im sure u did see it coming...u noe somehow i think it teaches us a lesson when someone suddenly left us for the netherworld...it teaches us not to take anione for granted cos u'll never noe when dat person might left u...and when u realised how much dat person means to u,i'll be too late to have dat person back...so y'all out there,cherish and love da person/pple close 2 u with all your heart...like dey alwaes sae...U DONT MISS YOUR WATER TILL DA WELL RUNS DRY...

Niwae 'nuff of dat aite...hahaha...it sound so cliche...hahaha...so on da 24th MAc '05,me went out with two of my homies...Nana and Sofia...had a ball of a tym..we went to bishan to get my transfer application done and den headed to Delifrance @ Woodlands for lunch and den we when to West Coast PArk for some fun...we decided to go to eact coast but Nana wanna climbed up d pyramid at West Coast park so we went there...had lotsa fun playing in da sun...then sofia started to get a lil' 2 excited and suffered chest pains...luckily its not dat serious...so all of us settle down for awhile to enable sofia to relax...its da peak hours when we decided to head for home...so da bus was so packed like a tin of sardines...luckily our stop was just a few bus stop awae from where we boarded da bus...we alighted at the interchange and nana went back home(she lives near there)while sofia and me gotta wait for another bus to sorta take us home...i reached home at arnd 7.30-8 p.m. and surprise surprise my aunt,cuzzs and my niece and nephew were there...dey were having a karaoke session so can u imagine da torture i had to go thru listening to them...hahaha...if u asked me,i rather go out again and came back only when dey had stop singing...hahahahahhahahahahaha....im joking aite...its nice to hang out with your family...it is alwaes a pleasure having little monsters around to keep your mind off certain things...hahahaha...so dere u have it d updates of what's been going on in my life...hahahaha...

~BK's out~
28th Mac '05
15:29 hrs

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Monday, March 28, 2005

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

these past few daes,i've been doodling non-stop...n im sorta enjoying it...it kinda took my mind off things...help me be more creative...hahahaha...and doodling is d onlie thing to keep me sane when i cldnt get to sleep at night...im not suffering from insomnia aite..i dunnoe these few daes falling asleep had been some kind of difficulty for me..aniwaes i got my posting result todae and im posted to Bishan ITE...but im asking for a transfer to Simei ITE...me like da environment there and sara and sofia is dere too...so me got company...hahaha...me dunnie wat else to write in cos my mind is totallie blank...im so freaking bored rite now...hmm...me guess me gon end this now...ciao

~BK's out~
22nd Mac '05
15:49 hrs

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Monday, March 21, 2005

Goodbye

And so it comes just as it is
A day no longer here
And thru' my trembling fingertips
The memories of the year.

I wave farewell to all our dreams,
I will forget you never.
I wonder if our crazy times
Will stay with you forver.

But as i cry in pain of losing
My dear and such good friends,
I will not close the book and say;
"Farewell,this is the end".

For good-byes create swift hellos
And days from now you'll see
That though it hurts to say good bye,
Friends forever we'll alwaes be.

~BK's out~
21st Mac '05
16:17hrs

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Monday, March 21, 2005

u noe wat,i've alreadi figured out da reason why my fwenshp with gerl is strained...da problem is me!!!Im da one who is to blame...Im actuallie turning my back on her instead of helping her with whatever shes facing right now...if i was dere helpinh her all along with it,things wldnt turned out this wae...and tell ya sumthing,she forgave me and said that whatever it is,i m still her bezfren...isnt dat so sweet of her...she also said dat she felt like she had lost me to sumone else and dat i wasnt dere beside her animore...gosh...so i said im sorrie and promise to be dere 4 her owaes even if she dunt want me 2...im so glad dat i took a chance and ask for her forgiveness coz i cannot live another dae in guilt n knowing dat it was not her fault to start with...im also glad dat i've found mysef back...to tell ya da truth i tink it was me who changed...i was being so indifferent towards her and sumhow giving her da cold shoulder but i never once did tried to hurt her with my actions...but i guess she was hurt by it one wae or another...OMG...can u imagine how happy i was to know dat we're still da best of frens...i had her as my bezfren twice and this is da 3rd tym..and DA LAST...hahaha...hope its 3rd tym lucky and dat we dunt have to face what we had before this...its terrible,exhausting and it does nothing to make our frenshp stronger instead it hurts us alot...i thank god for da blessing he gave to me and shedding his grace on me...n thank god for sending me a friend for lyfe...hehehe...im so happy dat im grinning from ear to ear as im typing this entry...everything is settled and im not gon look back..im gon look straight ahead of what's instored for me...muahahhaa...i guess im gon stop here for this entry..cos no werds are cuming out...IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~BK's out~
21st Mac '05
16:02 hrs

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Monday, March 21, 2005

Saturday, March 19, 2005

haiz...16th march marks d end of my 11mths of fwenshp with gerl.It hurts alot to see all of wat we had built goes down da drain.Its like i dun even noe her animore.It was me who said da words and im regretting it right now.When i looked back to the happy times we spent together,tears rolled down my cheeks.We had lotsa fun putting up da noticeboard at my former werkplace and even da time spent at her house doing nothing but crapping all dae long was da happiest time of my life.I just cant imagine life without our fwenshp.Its like i've lost apart of me dat i cherished most.I miss her ALOT!!!!Her crazy antics,her funny lame jokes in short i miss da time we spent together.Not forgetting during da fasting month where he had fun breaking fast together at my former werkplace.Gerl,her sis(fat),my sis(shawty)and myself.I miss da good 'ol daes.Every morning i woke up wondering if what i did was right and going to bed was hard cuz it seems to me dat im all alone.I have had her as my bestfriend twice in this life of mine.Im lucky and now i want her in this life for da 3rd time...i dun think i need to think twice cos i cant bear to lose da friend whom i looked upon as apart of me.Dey say "once bitten,twice shy" but i dunt tink i give a damn abt it.Its hard not having her arnd to tell me dats everything's alright,its hard not having her arnd to share my probs with...it's just so hard not having her arnd and noeing dat we're no longer friends...I cant live with dat kinda fact...im so confused right now!!!!

~Bk's out~
19th Mac '05
20:47 hrs

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Saturday, March 19, 2005

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

things are getting blown out of proportion...im at my wit's end and im totally stressed out...im running out of patience and im not gon sit down and do nothing...haiz...i dunnoe wat else to do!!

Went to gerl's hse ystdae to settle da score with her but shes not home...she said she gonna be home but i guess she's trying to avoid me...this crisis we're having is supposed to be done and over with a long time ago but she's da one with da prob...its not hard to find her but its REALLY hard to get her to sit down and talk things out...i dunnoe what else to sae to her...cant find animore waes to get thru' to her...im slowly giving up...it gonna hurt tho'...i called her my bestfriend,then one i'd care for and love till the end..i turn to her when im in need but it seems to me now dat shes running awae from me...niwae i wrote a poem specially for you gerl...eventho' u nvr once read up my bloggie

Tell me the reason why
we're drifting apart?
Why are we watching our lives pass us by
when we're linked heart to heart

We're no longer the same,
You and i.
All this is like a game
which bring tears to my eyes.

Are we still the best of friends
Or are we just acquaintance from the start?
Can we ever give ourselves a chance
and build our friendship back from start?

These are the questions
that runs thru my mind,
Im running out of patience
and not in the right of mind...

to gerl:i hope u see da daylight before its too late...

~BK's out~
15th Mac '05
14:32 hrs

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Thursday, March 10, 2005

haiz...im not in da mood to update aniting here aite...haiz...i dunno wat da hell is wrong with me...is it wrong to trust your bestfriend???i mean u shld rite since...WHATEVER!!!!!!!!I noe whats wrong and wats right...i'ma do this right...trust goes a long wae but im not going to stop trusting that someone unless she stretched my patience thin...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!...dats all i think...me venting out my frustrations here...

~BK's out~
15:37 hrs
09th Mac '05

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Oritey pple...im back...after being gone for almost a month now...first and foremost,let me do some apologizing...to tash im sorie dat i didnt talk to u abt dat matter...its just dat i aint got da time to do so...im happie tho dat u care...i've let it out(not all) sum tym ago...but i didnt quite say what i reallie wanted to sae...haiz..its kinda difficult to do so cause im facing my bestfriend...Da one im proud abt,da one i hate to hate...u geddit??Niwae thnx tash...eventho' u're not here to lend me your shoulder or listen to what i have to say,i can stil feel your presence...dats wat matter most to me..THANKS!!!!!!!!!!

Aniwae...i had a ball of a time last week..Umi,one of my close friend,organise a bbq session at east coast and did i mention that it was so FUN!!!!!!!I was laufing da whole night thru'...didnt sleep a wink...hahaha...keep on joking with Yanis,mai,Abg hanyut(Wahid),ayu,aini,umi and my sis...tried to get to sleep but if i sleep then i'ma missed da laufter...hahaha..niwae how to sleep when all of them are making such a din...hahhahah...Yanis and Id was like wrestling each other and we played stupid game..all of us are so lame...hahaha...da next morning as we were abt to went home,da rain suddenly pours...all of dat lazy Id who refuse to shower...so all of us were caught in da rain...and we were so wet dat all of us were shivering like hell in da bus...yanis even had to change into a new pants in da bus(no shame)...hahhaa...took lotsa pictures...think im gonna upload them...hehehehe...

Also,mi got my GCE 'O' level examinations result 2 daes ago...and i think i did quite well...thot i cldnt make it cause when everybody was bust mugging,i was busy surfing da net...dats how lazy i am when it comes to studying..im kinda happy-go-lucky type...hehehehe...i hope this entry is enuff for now...cos im pretty much cuaght up at this point of time...im moving hoouse u see so need to pack them stuffs...so when i have da tym to write sumore,i'll write again aite...so see ya peeps when i c ya...MUACKZS!!!!!

~BK's out~
02nd Mac '05
13:28hrs