hahaha...im ECSTATIC...hahaha...im speechless...OMG!!!!!!!im so damn fucking happy...hahaha!!!!!!!!da reason...my bestfriend and i are back to what we used to be...hahaha...OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!Im so so so so so HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!Actuallie she smsed me first...hahaha

I kinda asked her what happened and where have she been all this while...she said she just need sumtym to be alone...so i said...do u still need to be alone cause if u still do den msg me once u're done being alone...i thot shes not goin to reply to my msg but she did(THANK GOD!!!)she said..."Nah its ok...I tink its ? bez talking to sumone who noes me betta den keeping myself quiet..."Oh god...im so glad she smsed me...oritey den i asked her how have she been doing...and her replied was "i 've been bad lately...dun noe wats gona happen 2 myself...its been hard without u dese past daes...i'm sori aite..." Im so sorie 2 gerl...guess i was harsh with u d other dae...but i didnt mean 2...anyone in my position will be so darn mad if u broke to them dat piece of news u told me on my burfdae...da last ting i need was another fight with ya...im terribly sorie...da 2 of us are sort of in da same boat...xcept dat i dun care wats gon happen to THEM!!!!i tink deserved it...and if u tink im being cruel by saying dat den i gotta nothing to sae but from da bottom of my heart dey do deserve what dey deserve...u play with fire,u get burn...dey're lucky they didnt die...and u 're so damn lucky u weren't there...cos if u were to get da same fate as them i dunnoe wat to do with myself...im gon have to call myself a USELESS friend...but i did tried to stop u even beg u so i guess im not dat useless...hahaha

OMIGAWD!!!!We're back as da best of friends...hahaha...we're sisters again...YEAH!!!!!!!i reallie thnk god for making my wish a reality...wishes to come true aftall huh...hahaha...do i stop here or do i continue...cause im totally out of werds...hahaha...i guess i stop...and stop smiling to myself...HAHAHA!!!

gErL & hUdA
Best homies ride or die!!!!!!!!

~BK's out~
18:11hrs
28th Dec '04

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Best Friend by Brandy

Whenever I'm down, I call on you my friend
A helping hand you lend, in my time of need so
I'm calling you now, just to make it through
What else can I do, don't you hear my please
Friends may come and friends may go

But you should know that
I've got your back, it's automatic
So never hesitate to call
Cuz I'm your sister and always for ya

I don't know what I'd ever do without you
From the beginning to the end
You've always been here right beside me
So I'll call you my best friend
Through the good times and the bad ones
Whether I lose or If I win
I know one thing that never changes and
That's you as my best friend

Whenever I'm down
With all that's going on, It's really going on
Just one of those days You say the right thing,
to keep me moving To keep me going strong,
what else can I say
Friends are there through thick and thin

Well I've been told that
And I believe that it's automatic
Call me when you need a friend
Cuz I'm your sister and always for ya and

I'll be there for you
When you're going through,
wouldn't you be my friend
Friend you can count on me
Call me when you need me

~BK's out~
12:54hrs
28th Dec '04

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

haiz...im so down dat i reallie dunno wat else to do...i feel so terrible,im extremely frustrated and my mind is in turmoil...Im just so sick and tired of EVERYTHING!!!I wanna let go of everything but deres sumthing dats holding me back...!!!Im going out of my head trynna deal with all these shit...HAIZ!!!Im at da darkest point of my life and i got no where to turn to xcept pouring out my every woes here...*sobs sobs*...

When is everything gonna be fine...???Is dat dae ever gonna come...???Are we still da best of friends...???Are u still dere...???Questions keep running thru my mind...so many questions,too little answers...if only i see it coming..but then again i did see it coming..i was being ignorant i guess..."IGNORANCE IS BLISS"...should i hate myself for what's happening right now cause im not in it alone...i only have myself to blame i guess...cause if i put da blame on others den im being unfair...!!!WHAT AM I TO DO???????

~BK's out~
12:38hrs
28th Dec '04

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

haiz...2 daes since my 17th burfdae...so wat im 17...dat doesnt change aniting...evrything is so fucking da same...i got a whole load of shit on my burfdae and dat alone spoiled my mood...!!!!!!!ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dunno why pple bother to make promises in da first place...and what this fuss abt promises being made so dat they can be broken...ohhh to hell with dat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!To hell with you out dere who fucking tink dat u can handle tings in ur own hands...look i was dere when u were down in da pitch black hole of misery...i was da one who lift u up...i was da one who went beyond my limits to make sure u're alright...i was da one friend who stopped her own world far too many times for u just so dat u can breathe easy...i never asked for aniting in return and never will but all i fucking ask was for u to be dere on my 17th burfdae...I guess dat was too much of a request...Look,i have only 1 regret in my life and that is letting u werk dere...and for that 1 regret,i can never forgive myself...I woke up every morning saying "if only i didnt ask u to go for da interview"...I've realized in time dat nuting cld ever change u not even a goddamn fucking mistake of urs and i've played my part...all i can do now is pray for u to be alright and dat we'll be da best of friends just like we used to...it reallie hurts to see u living ur life this wae...when i sae i dun wanna noe what's goin on,it doesnt mean i dun care...it just dat it hurts for me to listen to what u have to say...i asked u to do some soul-searching because its for ur own good...i dun wanna see my most beloved bestfriend ruin her life in a matter of just one night...dats just too fast a reality for me to accept...try to walk a mile in my shoes...im not asking u to change da person u are...im just asking u to see where on earth did u go wrong...Open ur goddamn eyes and look...Look until u see where ur fault lies...and when u've finally found urself,i'll be glad to reach out my hands for urs to hold again...Gerl,life is full of ups and downs...and im not spared either but why do u alwaes have to do sumting dat can ruin ur life and hurt does who love u...u tink u're d only one dat is full of problems and dat nothing is going right for u???I had my fair share of misery but dose things don't bring me down...dey dont make me do foolish things dat cld ruin my life sooner or even now...instead they taught me to be stronger..dey make me learn from da many wrongs dat i've done...dey help make me a better person...i told u before...opened up ur mouth and talk to me if u ever had problems but evrytime i sense sumting wrong with ya,u tried to shove da subject off by saying deres nothing wrong and u onlie came to me when u're oreadi crying ur eyes out...i just dunno wat else to sae to u...but i NEVER ONCE give up on you cos if i do den who else gon have ur back...den again im disappointed tym and tym again by dat fucking attitude of urs...i just dunno wat else to do...haiz...u asked me why am i cold towards u but did u ever noe u're da reason so...im smiling on da surface but deep down inside im breaking into a million pieces........IF ONLY U KNEW...

~BK's out~
19:41hrs
27th Dec '04

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Monday, December 27, 2004

erm...dunno wat 2 write in actuallie..hahaha..so i guess i just write wateva i feel like writing...

Recently i've made 2 new friends Ayum and Faisal...hehehe...both are guys obviously...nice guys as a matter of fact..hehehe...Shd i talk abt dem or shd i not talk about dem...i guess lets just talk abt dem since i got nuting to do...hahaha

Well,lets start with Ayum...got to noe him thru da mirc...i was so damn bored dat dae so i kinda like went into mirc and chat...i lied my way here and there to c wat r their response..haha..when dey ask for my number i kinda like y dun u gimme urs...hahaha...da same goes for him..he asked for mine but instead ended up giving his number to me...i dun reallie intend to msg or give a call just saving thier number for da sake of saving...muahaha...then i got a call from this ayum...at first i was kinda shocked how come he got my number so wen he called i was like "no i didnt call u..i guess it must have been my friend,B hu called you cos i tink she chatted with ya just now"..and i quickly hang up..hahaha...surprised surprised a few daes ltr he sent me a gud nite msg..hahaha...so i send him a gud nite msg in return...but no other motive...but den he replied back introducing himself..bla bla bla..haha...me said im not interested...and tell him im not as pretty as my friend "B" and im plus sized(which is da truth)..basically told him da truth so he wunt disturb me but he said its okie..dun really mind just wanna make frens...So this is how our friendship started...hahaha...its funny...we still sms each other till todae...and hes quite a good looking guy(he mms me his pic)...hahaha...glad to have him as my friend...it kinda surprised me dat he wants to be friends...muahahaha

Da same goes for Faisal actuallie...xcept dat i gave him my num instead of d other wae round and theres no "B" this tym...hahaha...but compared Ayum to Faisal i prefer Ayum cos we kinda have da same thinkings...hahaha...both are them are good-looking tho'...hahaha...

Dats all for todae folks...muahahaha...c ya arnd...CIAO!!!!

~BK's out~
12:42hrs
23rd Dec '04

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Thursday, December 23, 2004

Ho ho ho...Christmas is arnd da corner and u noe wat dat means...im turning 17..hahaha..finally..!!Thank god...all my friends had turned 17 months ago and here i am just abt to turn 17...i sometyms asked myself whether having born on a holidae a good thing or not...??? Haiz...i dunnoe actualli...but nvm...as long as im being remembered its ok...dun ask for much actualli just hoping dat pple rmbers me...

Oritey...Im not feeling well actuallie...have a reallie bad sore throat and been coughing heavily...and runny nose..ya noe all da flu thingy...Been going on for almost 3 weeks oreadi...hehehe...just to stubborn to take some cold remedy...hahaha...Da last couple of daes had been a great weekend...Sleepover at my kuzzin's crib on Saturdae,Sundae,Mondae,Today and Wednesdae...hahax!!!Had loads and loads of fun dere with my niece,Dini Dannisha and nephew,Ariq Danish...not forgetting their mom and my other kuzz...My niece is 1 yr 8 mth but shes oreadi talking and acting like a 3 yr old kiddo...Shes one of a kind man...da house is nvr quiet with her arnd...even when shes sleeping...den on sundae got some advance frm my acct mngr and went to JP(Jurong Point)to shop for stuffs...got my mom this blouse for her 41st b'dae which falls on Mondae,20th Dec '04...dats like ystdae...hahaha..bought for myself a pair of new shades from 77th street(kewl shades dey got over dere)...my fav will be da retro shades and this one dat i just bought...i also got myself a hp strap so dat i'll owaes have it arnd my neck everywhere i go...hehehe...cant rmb what else i bought...hehehe...all i noe at d end of da dae im only left with arnd 2 bucks in my pocket...hehehe...guess i spent quite alot...hahaha...den ystdae wen to JP again...this tym with my aunt and kuzzs and my niece and nephew...went shopping also but a diff thing...this tym we shopped for tidbits..and lotsa and lotsa tidbits...bet its not gon last long...hahaha...

Me gon stop here...a lil' worn out...not 'nuff sleep actuallie...stayed up until alomost 3 talking to my kuzz...both of us are frustrated u c..but on 2 diff matters so we sit down and talk...to let go of da frustration...k lar...tired arkh to continue...Ciao!!!!!!!!!!

~BK's out~
13:04hrs
21st Dec '04

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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

haiz...im so bored rite now...dunno what else to do xcept for this...hahax...guess im goin go to talk abt what happened at my werkplace recently...

Oritey..here it goes....6th Dec '04...this man walked into my werkplace(DCentral a.k.a DC)...i was not there at dat tym..i was in da toilet actualli...when i walked in,i saw this man standing near da counter...i asked my sis(who also werk dere)what was going on and she said he was from da CID or sumting like dat...and he wanted to see our id card...but we didnt show it to him cause from he's kinda face one look and u noe hes a MATHAFARKER!!!!!!!!!!!!i went inside the counter and asked him what he wanted...and he said jokingly dat he was doing his rounds and came by here to use da pc for his werk...then i asked him wat kind of werk he's doing arkh...i guess he dun noe wat to answer me cause he cut me off by saying "actualli im with da CNB"...i was like "fine u wanna play games let's play and see who wins"...so i just gave him a fake smile and go to da pc dat my sis was on and sit next to her...He was so thick-skinned...he actuallie took a chair and sit on the other side of her...My sis was so pissed off...He apologized for joking with her and whatsoever...we just sat dere nodding our heads and lauf and smile but couldnt care less...

He kept telling us about himself...saying dat he's 24 and that he got lotsa handfones at home...and dat he just got married da week before and getting a divorce da week aft this...All kinds of shit...He said this and he said that...ALL OF IT WERE DAMN FUCKING LIES...So da nxt dae he came by again this tym bringing us food for no reason...saying he treated us like his own sibs and that he cared abt us(what a whole lot of CRAP!!!!!!!!)As usual we just ignored him but nodding our head evrynow and then...what a sucker.....!!!!!!!!!!!

Den recently da truth came to light but slowly...i was so suspicious abt him dat i decided to ask him for his i/c num...i thot at first dat hes not gon gimme da num cos he's lying but i guess hes just so plain *STUPID*...he actuallie gave it to me...da moment he said "85..." i turned to him and kinda shouted at him in mly..."erkh sial eh kao ni...kao 19 thn kan...penipu haram!asl kao ckp kao 24 arkh..." and he gave me da how-on-earth-did-u noe-im-19 kinda look...i was infuriated...i said "erkh tlg lah erkh...aku tahun 87 tau...kao saper nak tipu aku..."from den on i grew to reallie hate him...but he kept doing good tings...he actuallie let me use his sim card for da tym being...i asked him for wat give me da sim card...he said nvm..i've been so good to him...i was like awww...get da hell out of here...I REALLY LOATHE HIM TO DA CORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Everytime i see his face i wanna give it a good punch...to kinda release da anger dat he caused...FUCK HIM MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH...hes driving me nuts.......

Another thing is my bestfriend,gerL knew him and told me dat hes actuallie with da Civil Defence(CD)...so i kinda confronted him again abt it and he was dumbfounded asking how da hell did my fwen knew him and his family all dat...so i said hes in no position to play games with me cos im not da one hu tolerate this kind of thingy...once i get hold of da truth i sure damn rabakz skali arkh...and sumore he my godsis damned him to da core bcause he was trying to poke his nose into her life and all that personal thingy...WHO DA HELL HE TINK HE IS PRYING INTO OUR PERSONAL LIFE??????!!!!!!

My godsis already said that if he ever trip her wire again.he gonna get it from her...its been such along time since she last lay her hands on pple...dun make her do it cos once her devil's horn is up deres no turning back....muahahaha....its true...dun irritate her if u juz gotta knoe her cos if not u'll get it cuming....trust me...i've known her for almost 3 yrs now...

TO DAT MATHAFARKER,U BETTER WATCH UR BACK SON COS U'LL NEVER KNOW WHO'S COMING TO GET YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND STOP LYING UR ASS OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!

~BK's out~
9:33 hrs
17th Dec '04

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Friday, December 17, 2004

hahaha....hes bax...YEAH!!!!I mean Peter and finally im free...dun have to werk no more...can sit at home and rot...wakakakaka....i can finally go out with my peeps again...have fun...have time alone...sit at home watch tv and catch up on da great deal of tings that i've missed out on...Reallie miss my tv alot...i dunno how im able to sit in da shop for 10 hrs just staring at da computer screen and going to da same webbie over and over and over again...if im given a second chance to do dis all over again i'll gladly turn the invitation down...

Im lost for words actualli...hehehe...i cant wait to get home ltr(i mean at 10pm)and sleep until 2moro aftnoon...no more waking up early for me....hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Im going to stop here....dunno wat to write oreadi...muahahahaha......

~BK's out~
13:46hrs
17th Dec '04

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Friday, December 17, 2004

waddup peepx...got nothing to do actualli xcept laufing from just now bcause da clown is in da house...i repeat shes in da house....wakakakaaka...sorie...i got carried away...HAHAHAHA!!!!! Yanis is here todae cos i ask her ard...miss her jokes...i've been laufing frm just now because she keep cracking up jokes...from one joke to another joke...its so FUN having her arnd....u'll drop dead from laufing...ok maybe i'm exaggerating abt that fact but it's still a fact aite....hehehex...

Oritey 'nuff bout dat i guess..hehehex!!!!!Hmmm...i havent had enuff rest since da 3rd of Dec bcause i gotta werk for 2 weeks covering up for Peter who is away to Malaysia..haiz...Im so worn out and its so damn cold here...shivering like hell...im onlie at home for about 3-5 hrs(when im awake)...i gotta open da shop at 12.00 noon...i finish my werk an gotta close da shop at 10.00p.m...i reached home at abt 10.15-10.30...washed up and eat and then watch da tv cause i missed out on a great deal of thing....den zZzZzZzZz(fade to slumber land)...got up in da morning...sit down sleepily and then lazily get up and go straight to da bathroom...have my shower...get ready and in 10 mins time im out of da house on da wae to werk...dats my routine everydae for 2 weeks....pathetic rite????....and in between werk,i dunno wat's happening outside cos im stuck here every single dae..i dunno if its raining ot sunny outside....HAIZ!!!!!!!!Fortunately 2moro id my last dae...YEAH!!!!!!!!hahahax...On sundae im going out with my friends...sara,sofia and my sis and my ever so CUTE niece,dini dannisha...Finally a breathe of fresh air...

Im missing my bestfriend,gerL...shes been very very busy lately and we havent spend much tym together...reallie miss da good old daes when she used to cum arnd here and wait for me to finish werk and then i wld walk her to da bus stop and wait and talk to her until her bus came...hahahax....reallie misses dat alot....another thing i miss is going to her house and chilled there until evening...hahahax...It seems like ages ive not seen her but i just talk to her on da fone dis morning when she was on her wae to werk and i last saw her this mondae...i dunno when's da nxt tym im gonna see her again...maybe its this sundae cause i'm going to pass her handfone bill for this month but then im sure shes gonna be pretty busy...haiz...dun reallie noe actualli...all i noe is dat shes gonna be so free on March 2005 because her werkplace(Lawry's The Prime Rib) is close for a month due to renovation werks....hehehex....i cant wait for dat to come..I also cant wait to go to Bangkok with my kuzzs....We are gon' have LOTSA and LOTSA of fun...hehehhee.....

Guess im gonna stop here cause this post is so da very da long....hehehehe....C ya arnd....muackzs

~BK's out~
20:05hrs
16th Dec '04

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Thursday, December 16, 2004

Noe sumting ppl...my werkplace gonna close down bcause my GM did not settle payment...Its so sad bcause i spent most of my 2004 here and now dat da year is coming to an end this place is closing down...haiz..!!!

Lets do some reminiscng aite...this place was opened if im not wrung ard April or May and so quickly i've become attached to it...If i have nothing to do at home,i wld come arnd here...this is also where my homies and i met and make good use of da service here..hahaha..I started out as a customer at DCentral...as tym goes by i got along pretty close to the werker here and i ask if deres any vacancy for part-timers since da June holidae is cuming and at first i got "no" for a reply but then a "yes" came by and so starting frm da June hols i was already a part-tymer here...i dun really cared abt da pay and im finding is experienced...Im still a part-timer till todae as a matter of fact im actualli werking rite now...hehehe...

Im realli gonna miss dis place when it closes down...i had great fun decorating da noticeboard with my sis and bestfriend,gerL...dats da best memory i had and da one i'll NEVER forget!!!!!!!!!!!U noe when u became attached to something,u find it hard to let go of it but somehow and in one wae or another u have to let go of it cos its d only way out...thats da feeling im feeling rite now...i have to let go sumthing dat has become a part of me...a place full of ups and down for me...a place where laufter come from and a place where new friendship are made... haiz!!!!!This place will be stored in my memory forever and for alwaes...

~Bk's out~
21:09hrs
15th Dec '04

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Gosh editing da template is sure a tiring job aftall...I spent for nearly 2 hrs editing this and that and finally i sumwhat achieved da kind of fonts and colour i wanted(eventho its not up to my standard yet...)I dunno how u guys look at it but for now this is da best dat i can churn out...im terribly tired areadi...tag me whatever u guys feel about this bloggy of mine...i guess dats my entry for now cos im going do sum stretching before i do my werk...my body's aching!!!!!!!

~BK's out~
18:35hrs
15th Dec '04

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

harlew....nu bloggy frm me...hahx...got so many blogs oreadi but all not nice....

~BK's out~
15:18hrs
14th Dec '04

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Tuesday, December 14, 2004